Break Up Lines

Break up lines

come from my lips

applying to the state of us.

"We've drifted apart,"

seems appropriate

but more honestly,

"It's not you, it's me."

You haven't gone anywhere,

Pursuer of my soul,

but I have.

Without going anywhere,

I have.

I feel this way sometimes about God. "Where have you gone?" is the question asked and felt but really I'm asking myself the question. He hasn't gone anywhere. Somewhere I slipped on the slopes of mundane and mediocrity. The everyday living of life without intentionality and purpose leads me to those slopes. Fortunately I don't slip too far off the mountain. It helps that he's holding his staff down to me to pull me back up. Renewed in my heart with the fresh memory of my inability to lead myself rightly I live purposefully and intentionally. Until I slip off the slope again. Usually because I got off his back. There I go again thinking I can lead myself but there he is again ready to carry me.